Tag: personal
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Filling Your Own Cup: Persevering in Uncertain Times
Do you ever feel like you’re stuck because pieces of you are split up in different places? Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m in limbo. The feeling first started creeping in when I was living somewhere I was anxious to leave and I knew that better opportunities were waiting for me somewhere else. It’s like…
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My First YouTube Vlog: Honoring Your Authentic Self
Get in front of the camera, they said. People want to actually *see* the artist behind the work, they said. I heard all of this repeatedly and continued to ignore it until finally, I didn’t. That’s the thing about slowly conquering your fears though, resistance loves stepping in and making sure you avoid exactly that.…
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Your Brain on Abstract Art: A Guide to Achieving Mindfulness Through Painting
As my relationship with abstract art deepens, I find myself wanting to share all the juicy benefits it’s provided me with the world like a healing elixir. I think if more people knew how welcoming and nurturing painting like this could be, we’d alleviate a lot of the collective tension. Who doesn’t want that? In…
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Painting with Tarot Cards and Uncovering Life Lessons
In one of my most recent “From the Art” abstract painting time lapse videos, I experimented with something a little out of my comfort zone. I combined a developing spiritual practice with my painting practice and became the vessel for what unfolded. While I do this often in the comfort of total solitude, sharing it…
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My Big Fat Hollywood Move: In the Thick of It
I don’t know how long I had been complacent before I moved out here, but I do remember feeling like Dustin Hoffman in the opening scene of The Graduate — propelling lifelessly on a moving walkway into his future. I bounced from one non-stimulating experience to another and rotated between the same toxic behavioral patterns.…
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My Big Fat Hollywood Move
A 24-year-old’s last-ditch effort at “following her dreams” with her boyfriend and moving across the country to see it through It’s been a little over a week since I stuffed my possessions into two suitcases, drained myself dry from parting hugs, and transported myself from Boston to Los Angeles where my boyfriend Rich and our…
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Hold
There’s an insatiable hunger that food can never dull. It lives in the deepest crevice of your heart, and contorts your dreams till you’re sick. Feed it too much and the hunger spreads. Feed it too little and it’ll eat its way out. Feed it nothing – now that’s the trick. Like a dog whose…
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Surface Tension
He held me on the sidewalk while bodies passed, dodging us like we were delicate birds in the middle of the road. I stained his jacket like the rain looming above our heads threatened to stain the city. We had been here before. Me grieving a loss of something I’d never had. Him towering over…
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Wasting Away
If only I could puke me out. When I was done carving out my insides I’d watch the ugly colorless excrement squirm on the floor. ______________________________________________________________________________ No need to kill it. It’ll just die starving, waiting for nourishment like a newborn – reaching out for hands. ______________________________________________________________________________ We’re all put off by our own vomit,…
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Where’d All My Friends Go?
I’ve been thinking about friendship lately, the inconsistency of it, and the paths we take to certain people. They say you need to take time to work on yourself before you’re marinated and ready for the right romantic partner, but what about when it comes to making lasting friends? When I was an introspective, moody,…
Spiral Alchemy 